I am fucking pathetic. I am the most worthless peice of shit. I can not believe how easily I can fuck everything up. I don’t have an eating disorder, I am a fat fucking cow. I’m going to gain weight. I am going to wake up and be heavier than I already was and shoot myself in the fucking head. I hate myself.
Passing out.
This morning I woke up I weighed myself and got into the shower like always. Everything was so heavy and took way too much energy. I felt like I was moving in slow motion. Washing my hair was hard. My heart was beating too fast, it was all I could hear and it was annoying the fuck out of me. I was dizzy, weak, and nauseous. Black dots appeared in my vision and grew bigger until I passed out.
